âI know now, what I didnât then, that affection canât always be expressed in calm, orderly, articulate ways; and that one cannot prescribe the form it should take for anyone else.â
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âI know now, what I didnât then, that affection canât always be expressed in calm, orderly, articulate ways; and that one cannot prescribe the form it should take for anyone else.â
âWe can ask and ask but we canât have again what once seemed ours for everâthe way things looked, that church alone in the fields, a bed on a belfry floor, a remembered voice, the touch of a hand, a loved face. Theyâve gone and you can only wait for the pain to pass.â
âĂa ne manque pas, les chambres. The world is full of roomsâ big rooms, little rooms, round rooms, square ones, rooms high up, rooms low downâall kinds of rooms! What kind of room do you think Giovanni should be living in? How long do you think it took me to find the room I have? And since when, since whenââhe stopped and beat with his forefinger on my chestââhave you so hated the room? Since when? Since yesterday, since always? Dis-moi.â
âThe rabbi, my lover, is back from Warsaw, so my concentration and self-esteem are destroyed. I wrote mythological poems in ninth grade, and the myth my lover resembles is Orpheusânot that I revere Orpheus, I think Orpheus was a failure and a turncoat, I prefer Abraham for being a semi-literalist about Godâs commands. The real heartthrob is Isaac, who, if he were alive now and living in Hoboken or in this tiny town near Hoboken, a town I am devastated to admit is my permanent address, would wear studious gold-framed glasses and would have an unfashionable halo of disordered and frizzy curls; he would play the oboe and be constantly licking and biting and polishing his reeds; and he would treat me disrespectfully.â
“But what you are left with is a premonition of the way your life will fade behind you, like a book you have read too quickly, leaving a dwindling trail of images and emotions, until all you can remember is a name.”
“âSince one cannot have truth,â cried Sebastian, struggling into his evening shirt, âlet us at least have good manners.â”
âAnna and Tom had grown up with the notion that individuality manifested itself as a set of visual differences, immediately decodable and in constant need of updating.â
âThe act of salvation is never performed, because anyone with the strength to carry it out is unaware that they must do it, and the knowing person is incapable of action.â
âSometimes it is the evidence, the spectacle of another personâs grief that harrows you, more than the loss itself.â
âIs this the bar for horses or have I come to the wrong place?â
âThe thing that makes life interesting is that it ends. The thing that makes love worthwhile is that itâs all weâve got.â
âDo you know what a clichĂ© is? Itâs a story so fine and thrilling that itâs grown old in its hopeful retelling.â
âBut now isnât simply now. Now is also a cold reminder: one whole day later than yesterday, one year later than last year. Every now is labeled with its date, rendering all past nows obsolete, untilâlater of soonerâperhapsâno, not perhapsâquite certainly: it will come.â
âMost of life is so dull it is not worth discussing, and it is dull at all ages. When we change our brand of cigarette, move to a new neighborhood, subscribe to a different newspaper, fall in and out of love, we are protesting in ways both frivolous and deep against the not to be diluted dullness of day-to-day living.â
âIt’s always wonderful when something altogether wrong ends right, without the help of either religion or the police.â